Thursday, October 4, 2007

Now what?

Now what?

I find myself asking this way a lot. My confused soul keeps me perplexed always. I wish there were subtitles in the movie called Life. How I wish.

Being born on a date of certain month helped someone to categorize me as “Gemini”. Well they tagged, the core characteristic of the person will be – Confusion. Sometimes I think, how could they judge me when I was just seconds old in this world? Then I realized, they have these statistics and calendars. But hell with these statistics and calendars man! I am this confused soul because of them!

Really?

Not sure. Why am I like this? Never so sure of what I really want. Always at the end it’s like someone else had already made the decision. I just act accordingly. It’s like being a push-over by a hand invisible. It’s sad.

Really?

Not sure. If this so called hand wasn’t there, I would have never done anything. Never would’ve selected a thing or a person into my life. Never would’ve made any shopping. But anyone does? Isn’t always this so called invisible hands?

Really?

Not sure. What about atheist? They say it’s their hand in all their chores. They say that the only thing which is invisible is “truth”. But why truth has to play hide and seek game? Isn’t it the only visible – invisible thing around? So is it actually invisible?

Really?

Not sure. All those reformers say, its “passion”, which is invisibly-visible thing. But who ever have got what these guys actually speak? Everyone has their own interpretations. It’s the way they interpret their own life. Their own visibility. Their own invisibility.
Really?

Not sure. How I wish someday I will be so sure of what I want in life. What I look for. What I need from a person. What I want. What makes me happy. What will be right for me. But will it be then my selfishness?

Really?

Not sure. Not sure because I was born on a certain month? Not sure because they categorized me “Gemini”? Not sure because I, myself is a push over of my own altercative decisions?

Really?

Not sure. One thing I am sure is I am confused.

Really?

Not sure.

3 comments:

Praseetha said...

Me being an already confused person, this recent blog got me confused even more, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....;)i know how painful it is to be confused person, my condolences....heheh;)

[dev] said...

Thats why I sometime feel that life REALLY is a vicious circie! or is it really one??!!

Archana said...

That why now I hate life!!!